Saturday, June 26, 2010

Melancholy Music

Pondering tonight why I am so drawn to melancholy songs... "Hurt", "Cumbersome", "Creep", "Save Yourself", "Haunting Me", "what do I have to do", "Box of Rain", "Shaking Hands (Soldier's Joy)"....etc. etc. etc.

I think my Daddy's sudden death in 1971 permanently scarred my psyche.... I've never completely recovered. The sad songs allow me to feel ..

I was so hurt by the loss of my father, my world turned upside down, that I shut off part of myself. I have a hard time getting close to people because I'm afraid of losing them.. being hurt again. I can't even show my children the depth of love I have for them.. sad sad sad.

Maybe one day I can peel back the layers before it's too late.

A box of rain will ease the pain and love will see you through.
Just a box of rain, wind and water
believe it if you need it
if you don't, just pass it on
sun and shower, wind and rain
in and out the window
like a moth before a flame.

And it's just a box of rain
I don't know who put it there
believe it if you need it
or need it if you dare

and it's just a box of rain
or a ribbon for your hair
such a long long time to be gone
and a short time to be there.

I miss you Daddy.

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